Life Goes On

So, How do I feel right now?

I feel like I lost a great friend.
I feel like I had no other choice and both choices sucked.
I feel like I need to learn how to move on.
I feel extremely comfused.
I ask why him and not me?
I ask the question "does a kiss have meaning these days?" I fear the answer is no.
I wonder why my heart feels so attracted to her but hers not to mine.
I feel I put on a show of calmness, I tell you, Dan Heier is not all calm and quiet as most know him (on the inside at least.)
I am furious.
I am glad.
I am pissed.
I am sad.
Can I listen to certain music the same as before? probably not
I don't understand?
Is there a place for understanding?
I have dug deep into the soul, but it must go deeper... I hope
For a second, I believed "All My Loving" by the Beatles was true in my life.
FUCK!!! WHY?!?!?!

Yeah, that pretty much wraps up how I feel. Good thing the sun comes up tomorrow and that life goes on.

Daniel